It has been a long time since I have posted. And the holiday season is breathing down my neck. I can feel the jingled covered heat upon my scarf covered throat.
And still I have the goal. To get to a MU.
Time. I am not sure how long it is going to take. Thoughts. Well. I still need, I feel, to lean-out.
It is super tricky around this season. There is so much available that is NOT optimal to put in my body. Things that I feel I "deserve" - there is SO much marketing around crap. I need to develop tactics - to not feel deprived. This can be tricky.
I tired to start a blog where I was taking a picture of everything I ate. This doesn't scale.
A lot of what I post here is about food etc.
But, there is a lot of mental stuff. Always going on. Bad self talk. A feeling of a lack of hope. It is hard to acknowledge what I have accomplished. And it is hard to feel like I have made strides - and that I am not back-sliding. All of this is a constant battle.
Changing patterns is hard. But, when you see a better way. It is worth pursuing.
