Way Past 90 - and straight into the Holiday Season.

It has been a long time since I have posted. And the holiday season is breathing down my neck. I can feel the jingled covered heat upon my scarf covered throat.

And still I have the goal. To get to a MU.

Time. I am not sure how long it is going to take. Thoughts. Well. I still need, I feel, to lean-out.

It is super tricky around this season. There is so much available that is NOT optimal to put in my body. Things that I feel I "deserve" - there is SO much marketing around crap. I need to develop tactics - to not feel deprived. This can be tricky.

I tired to start a blog where I was taking a picture of everything I ate. This doesn't scale.

A lot of what I post here is about food etc.

But, there is a lot of mental stuff. Always going on. Bad self talk. A feeling of a lack of hope. It is hard to acknowledge what I have accomplished. And it is hard to feel like I have made strides - and that I am not back-sliding. All of this is a constant battle.

Changing patterns is hard. But, when you see a better way. It is worth pursuing.

Day 98.

So I am having coffee. This is my 2nd coffee since giving it up for 28 days. YEP! TWENTY EIGHT DAYS.

It is amazing. I love it. I love how it makes me feel. It is amazing how sensitive I am to the caffeine again.

I am having a Tall Americano with a TBS of Coconut Milk. I really want Heavy Whipping Cream --- SO DELICIOUS. But, I am holding off on that for a bit.

I will try not to do coffee everyday. But, man, it provides me joy.

Oh AND I got said coffee at 620am and now it is 9am and I am still drinking it. Rock.

I need to make my blog prettier.

Don't I? Who wants to help me?

Day 95.

Sorry guys. I missed day 90.

As I explained though. This is no longer the 90 Day challenge this is a challenge until I get it - until it happens.

Days are good and days are bad. Today day 95. This is one of my not so awesome days. Again I just wish leaning out were not such a struggle. IT. IS. HARD. And I have been eating SQUEAKY clean. I think leaning would help get me to where I want to go. And I have gone down in weight, but now there seems to be a stall. Again. And I can't point the blame finger at myself for this one. I have been off everything. SO. I will cross my fingers. And buck up. I can't beat myself up. And I can't change what is a fact. So I need to accept it. Move on. And hope.

NEW VIDEO: Day 32

Day 32. from Jordan Holland on Vimeo.

Day 89. Day 20.

Tomorrow. Day 90. Whoa.

Well. It has been quite the journey. I have learned a lot. I have made some great progress. I have figured out how some food effect me - and now I have to figure out the choices I need to make with that information in hand.

Here is the thing though. Challenge. Not done.

New date. NOVEMBER. Seriously.

So. If it is the end of November this will be my 180 day challenge. What are the rules? Not sure yet. Will keep you posted :)

Day 81. Day 14.

I get asked "How is the challenge going?" a lot. And the answer. Really well. Do I think I will get a Muscle-up on day 90 - no. Does this make me sad - no. Why? Because I will get a Muscle-up ... soon. And I have made so much progress. This has been a road of ups and downs. Questions and confusions. Feeling awesome. Feeling deprived. Trying to figure out my body. Trying to figure out performance. Trying to figure out nutrition. Trying to figure out stress and the psychological barriers that all play a part of this game. And the result is that I have changed. In a very real/very good way. I have been on this journey for almost 3 years ago - that is when I first REALLY started looking at food ... and now I am finally getting it. It is amazing. And I feel really good about the future.

Day 78. Day 11.

Hey guys.

Still no coffee and feeling good. Yes. I do miss it in the morning. Yes. When I think about not having it my day starts a little dimly. BUT. You know - it has been getting better and what does bring a smile to my face. A touch of coconut milk with some powdered, roasted, maca. I don't think I would call it quite delicious. I and it is nothing compared to a quad tall americano with a dash of heave whipping cream (oh, man - that sounds good).

As for the muscle-up. No I haven't gotten one. No I haven't gotten pull-ups. No I haven't gotten a ring-dip.

YES. I am still making progress.

My eating is SQUEAKY clean. Seriously. The changes since going on the Whole30. Well - reading all ingrediantes. Which means some of my vitamins are a no, no - like the D that I have - don't worry I got another D from my ND.

Beef jerkey or Turkey jerky or any jerky is mostly out because of the added sugar and soy.

No gum. The fake sugars. And the real stuff has sugar - so obvy NO.

Really, really, really - NO SUGAR. No honey, no agave, no raw sugar, no substitues - nada.

No chocolate. Even if it is above 82%

FOR REAL. No alcohol. NONE.

Um. Still low on fruit. Just blueberries as of late (I LOVE THEM).

Still low on nuts. I had too many cashews over a 3 day span - and def. felt it. So - if I want to perform better I know to nix the nuts. Sometimes I say f it b/c they are a very satisfying treat. But, I have learned that I need to purchase in small quantities when the need for the snack is prevalent. I don't do any of the nut butters - too dangerous.

From the original request from Jordan of no - added - fat - paleo. I have strayed. To keep sane. I am totally eating clean. BUT. I have been cooking in coconut oil. And doing some coconut milk. And just recently I have added back in an avocado as a choice. It keeps me sane. And so I am keeping it. And don't go C.R.A.Z.Y. on it so. Some added fat = good stuff.

OH - and check it. Robb Wolf who I strongly respect in the field of nutrition - and listen to his blog every tuesday... he actually answered one of my questions in my quest to find something to satisfy that is NOT coffee - it is all about maca - check it here:

http://robbwolf.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/08/The-Paleolithic-Solution-Episode-41.mp3

Day 74. Day 7.

I was able to go to karaoke and not drink. DUDE. People. DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT MEANS? Holy crap. I am pretty impressed with myself. And confidant. Seriously, that feels good. And I would like to thank Celene and Jess for goading me into going. Fun without the drink. ACCOMPLISHED. Thank you guys.

Day 73.

This is Day 6 of the Whole30. It has been going well. This is Day 2 without coffee (again).

So:
Day 73 - Challenge
Day 6 - Whole30
Day 2 - No coffee/caffeine

Whoa. My feelings on progress go back and forth. What I have gotten better at is apparent the rate I am getting better is good, but a bit frustrating. I want more. Always more. And I want it now.

too tired in the evenings.

whew. oh blog. i am so sorry to not be more attentive to your needs. and updating.

this is DAY 71.

I feel: Stronger.
I feel: Not always as awesome as I want to.
I feel: Fatigued during workouts - esp. my quads. the muscles there make me want to STOP.
I feel: The want to be able to embrace ENDURANCE more. Continual movement MORE.
I feel: Frustrated that there is still part of the pull-up that I AM JUST NOT DOING. It is this swing part of the kip. I can swing forward but swinging back and creating a momentum to keep doing pull-ups over and over. I don't have this. I can see it. I can feel the lack of it. But I don't have it.
I feel: Like I WILL absolutely get a Muscle-up. This 90 day challenge will go ON until I actually GET IT.
I feel: Encouraged by my fellow CrossFitters. YOU ALL ROCK.


in other news I started the Whole30 on Sunday... more to come on that...

Attitude. CHECK.

I am too tired to post all of the revelations that had to happen for me to come out the other-side - of last week. It was a rough week. I feel better now. I will tell you all more more more about it -but not at this moment b/c I have a bed a'callin.

I want to thank.

Celene
Whitney
J-Ho

(I might post some of your words here - heads up)

Thank. You.

YES! I know you have been waiting... VIDEO 3!!!!

after the green.

sadly. the green was not awesome. i didn't feel good any of the days.

monday - was terrible. i had stomach ish all day long. now i have to say this is directly related to my weekend over-indulgence and i cannot blame the greens. but none-the-less monday was a bad day. my internals felt torn up. my energy was low. i was not in a good mood and i sorely missed coffee.

tuesday - was not so hot. i was doing okay to begin with still missing coffee. i had no idea exactly how tired i would feel without it. i don't get headaches so i thought i would be fine. NOT TRUE. it hurts me deep to the bone to not have that sweet substance to lighten my morning drudgery. half-way though the day my stomach started to act up - J-Ho hypothesizes that it might be spinach some people have a bad reaction to the oxalic acid ... might be that ... might be wheatgrass... all i know is that it was again - not awesome.

wednesday - was better than before. my mood was better. stomach better for most the day - but then it took a turn again. and this effects a lot - because when i feel off and my tummy is rumbly it is super-mega-ultra-hard to do focused GOOD work at the gym. and i also felt weak. and i the lack of coffee was still working its anti magic.

thoughts. i am going to keep on keeping on with no coffee till monday. if i have made it this far can't i make it a little further?

greens did not make me feel like a superhero.

but maybe they helped my liver??

which brings me to another question - is an occasional glass of wine okay (during this challenge)? or not? for my livers sake? ??

Also. HOLY CRAP do I FEEL TIRED WITHOUT COFFEE!

EXCITING NEWS!

I can eat more than I thought!!!! I really thought J-Ho was asking for JUST leafy greens. I was WRONG. SO excited.

So rules:

Coconut oil - 3T/day
Coconut flakes and flour - thumbs up

Hemp protein - A-OK

Coconut milk - NO NO NO

Greens, Broccoli, Asparagus, Cucumber - all okay!

GREEN.

It starts tomorrow. I just bought baby spinach at Trader Joes and earlier I went with Colleen (thank you) to the Ballard Farmers Market and got some GREENS.

Tonight I prep by cooking.

I am indulging in one treat today.

Check it: http://www.houseofthesunrawfood.com/

still stealing the web

okay. again my post must be brief lest I lose those two bars stolen from a kindly interweb paying neighbor.

update.

pr'd on pull-ups today.

yellow band - 6 pull ups. SWEET. I think I might have been able to do more... I was just so AMAZED my fingers uncurled. Seriously.

in other news.

GREENS. Eat them.

I realized I wasn't, not really. I like them though. Cooked. Mulched in a shake. Sauteed. Raw sucks. Which is why I don't really think about them. They require extra prep.

BUT for the last four days I have made them a part of my life. I have cooked up Kale, Spinach, and Chard - yum. Also, I realized that I need to eat more protien - I up'ed my meat and I feel GREAT.

More news on GREENS.

J-Ho and I are going to go all GREEN. Belive it.

THREE DAYS of only GREEN CONSUMPTION. WHAT?! I KNOW. I thought so too. It does suck. But, worth a whirl - I think so. He convinced me by saying that CALORIE for CALORIE beef and spinach have the same amount of protein - NOW that is a CRAZY town amount of spinach - but - I can try it FOR THREE DAYS! Bleg! kill me now. That will be creative times squared - fo' shiggidy.

oh. and we can have coconut... but only really to make things tolerable with flavor...

GET EXCITED.

fleeting internet connection

oh. i have been wanting to post.

but in "new place" i don't yet have internet. so mostly i will post from the "not starbucks" starbucks and smith.

ANYWHO.

I wanted to shout out (as they do) to WHITNEY! She has been amazing at support. Not "keeping me motivated" because that part doesn't die for me. But, Whit, has been there to push, support, and acknowledge change - like nobodies biz.

and.
that.
is.
huge.

Day 41.

Okay. It has been a hard week. New job. Unpacking. New routines. Etc. This week was full of a lot of learning at work. And a lot of non-focus at the gym. This makes me feel weak. And lame. And scared.

I want to reach my goal. I want to reach my goal.

I am afraid I won't. This was a week of feeling that fear.

I have push-ups. I climbed the rope (once) - it was cool.

I do not have a pull-up.
I do not have a dip.

I struggle with the minutia in food. I want so badly to "just lean out". But. For me. It is esp. hard. Some people are hard gainers - which is tough when they want to bulk up and be kings (or queens) of muscle. For me it is tricky to lean out. I have been doing pretty strict Paleo - I am not perfect. And I haven't been perfect with this - I have had heavy cream in my coffee. I have had a drink or two. I went crazy on fruit.

This month I have been really good with sticking to the NO FRUIT. I have looked at some raw bars. And today purchased some 85% dark chocolate (though I have had it yet).

So my bad. Isn't, like, BAD. But - it isn't perfect. Which in general I am okay with... because - I can't be perfect for a lifetime.

The couple things I DO NOT CHEAT ON are: Milk, Cheese, Processed foods, and Gluten. Hellz to the no.

SO - I am happy about that.

And I think in time. This is really going to be RAD for me.

My concern is the time-frame of this challenge.

I have no doubt in my mind that I am going to accomplish my goals. And lead the kind of lifestyle I want to lead - I am baby and big steppin' the way there - and with the way that I feel better and more energetic - there is no real "going back". There may be slips and falls, but in general I am dedicated. And I know I will get to where I want to go - it is just... will I get there by the end of this challenge?

I don't know.

Video TWO! My starting points.

back from camping

so I am back.
I am sore.
I am blistered.

I had A LOT of fun.

We hiked 11 mi on the first day, stayed put the 2nd, and did 7 mi on the last day. Got home around 10:30 last night.

My new apartment is rad, but full of my unpacked stuff. I need to go grocery shopping. I am starting new job in 50 min.

So much to straighten.

tightening. dialing. narrowing.

what what... it is day... 32 of the challenge. and 4th of july weekend.

New job starts July 6th.

I have spent the last few days moving from the Mansion to the Hill. Now everything is in boxes and bags. Super fun times.

On the 6th. After hiking - where I will have less control of being super squeaky clean paleo. I am going to modify my diet. I referred to it early. But the more I think about it the more dedicated I am.

Modifications:

• NO FRUIT. Except Blueberries - because they are DELICIOUS and in season. AND DELICIOUS.
• LESS COFFEE. I love it. LOVE it. I feel a tear coming to my eye, but I think I will try for 4 shots max per day - and a couple days ... ... ... off ... :(
• NUTS. I have been indulging. Sigh. And I still might. But, under 15/day. And not every day - maybe 3 days... I don't know... I need to cut... but I don't want to be too overzealous about all of this...

So. I leave it there for now. Will let you know how all that goes.

blueberries

my love.

should

should is a terrible word.

live blog.

yes before no

stop, brain, with the: "no" or "i can't" or "that is dumb" or "i don't get it"

what i learned today. no i didn't get the movement at first. i didn't get at second either. but doing it wrong a few times. i figured out how to do it right. and i got it.

so. new rule.

always "yes" first. this isn't about "i can" this is about the willingness. maybe i can't. but that shouldn't factor in...

giving up fruit?

I think it might happen.

To further efforts to lean-out. I think I will attempt to give up fruit in July.

I am hiking for 4th of July weekend... so after that I will turn-up my nose at fruit. I will allow blueberries.

Yep. Think I will do that. I will keep you posted.

i don't like very much

heavy weight. when it really isn't THAT heavy. and your brain is like, "well, this sucks." and i am like, "yeah, i know, it does" - and the body is like, "well, then we are all in agreement." and then the weight seems to be incrementally heavier. and less fun.

in other news: i am still stoked about push ups.

and for your eyes - some pics of food:





















chicken cooked in coconut oil - w/ fresh blueberries, strawberries and radishes









3 egg omelet w/spinach, sweet potato, red pepper, blueberries













Soup - based w/ Veggie Broth (low sodium), brussel sprouts, broccoli, carrots, and grass-fed beef

Body sore.

I hate running. Oh, I don't mind it for... say a half mile. I even give you 1 full mile. But, after that, if it is *just* running. Not after anything. Not with anyone. And my jams aren't keeping me distracted. B.O.R.E.D. I don't understand you distance runners.

However - I do see it as a valid form of training every so often.

Jordan asked me the other day when I had last run over 2 miles. My brain froze. I couldn't remember. I used to do it all the time. Back when I was in much worse shape I ran Greenlake almost every day... well Greenlake plus, because I would run from my house in "Wallingmont"to Greenlake around and back again. But. This did not put me in great shape. This did not make me faster. At this time I was still tired all the time... but, that is for a later post.

So. I went running yesterday. Boo-yah. I stopped mid-way around and did 3x10 of push-ups using a bar thing. And then I walked... and then I ran and sprinted back to my car. Yep. I hated it. And today my quads and calves are respectively sore and tight.

On this Sunday morn - I am having a nice sized breakfast (let me lay it out for you):

3 Egg Omelette (Omega-3 Eggs) - whisked with a tablespoon of Coconut Milk
add-in: .5 cup cooked ground grass-fed beef (cooked w/ cinnamon and cumin)
add-in: .5 cup bluberries
add-in: .5 cup cubed sweet potato
add-in: handfull of baby spinach
Cooked in .5 tbs of Coconut Oil - cinnamon added w/ a dash salt

Also... mixed 4 shots of espresso w/ 2 tbs of steamed Coconut Milk cut w/ H2O

Finally, video!!! See what it is all about!

Drinking

So, when I told a lot of my friends about this challenge they were supportive - until - I mentioned NO DRINKING (except for a few choice days). They railed against the restriction. Why? Annette - why? How does drinking affect your ability to reach a Muscle-Up in 90 days.

Well. My friends. A lot of ways. And last week was an example. It is time to come clean.

It started innocently enough. I quit my job. Got a new job. EXCITING, right?! And so, I decided to indulge in what Robb Wolf calls a Norcal Margarita - basically - tequila, fresh lime juice, splash of soda - and that is it. MMMmmm... I had two. No big deal. No ill effects. So then. I think... why not? Add in a little of the alcohol into the plan. I mean, after all, what will happen when the challenge ends? Don't I want to make sure that this is pretty much sustainable? The rules that I apply with drinking - only wine or tequila - because they are not grain based and nothing added - no sugar or fruit juice. And not, like, you know, drinking all the time ... right?! No problem. All is going well.


And then... Solstice - a week ago from today.


Oh. Solstice.

Here is the plan. Meet at my friend Katie's house... they will be drinking Mimosas - I will be prepared w/ tequila, lime juice, and soda...

It is an early drinking "festival day". See picture above - Katie and myself - all looks like it is going well... but, NO --- earlier at the house... making my second drink tragedy strikes. I was really excited because the amount of lime juice I had in my cup was AMAZING - this was going to be a good drink. PROBLEM. Hands + lime juice = slippery. Hands + lime juice + heavy square bottle of tequila = accident. I DROPPED THE WHOLE BOTTLE OF TEQULIA ON MY TOE. It hurt. And instantly started bleeding. No bandaides were available so Katie went super-camper style and jerry-rigged a bandage using a papertowel and her hairtie... beautiful...

See toe. This is post jerry-rigged-band-aide coming off.



I am a prize. Right? So this is the middle of my day. The day continues on and furthers itself in further acts of ridiculousness - which I really don't need to get into. But, this brings us back to why alcohol - NO.

It is not just the damage that it does to the liver. Or the body that needs to burn alcohol off first - it is the choices one makes when one over-indulges. They stop being well-thought out... or good. And there is fall-out from that...

Here is what it looked like for me:

The next day. HUNGOVER. All I want is food I have been doing a really, really, really good job avoiding. That sucks. I don't have that food, but I do eat more than I normally would. Oh... well that is not exactly true... in honor of full transparency... I am weak. WEAK. I have a cookie. My roommate was making some oatmeal chocolate chip cookies - with tahini!! WHAT! Tahini?! How must that taste!!!??? A girl must know. And so, in my weakened hungover state - I go for it. It is delicious and worth it. SO very worth it... but boy do I feel bad about it... and all I want now is 2o cookies.
Day after being hungover... I AM SICK. SICK. SICK. Throat sore. Have to get dental work. Have no energy... granted this is how my roommy was feeling - so I contracted from her, but would it have happened if I were not down yesterday...? That is the question. So I don't work out that day. I read. And have one VERY LARGE meal in the middle of my day. Beef, Cauliflower, Broccoli... made of good stuff... and then I have a modest amount of pineapple - which ends up becoming a WHOLE PINEAPPLE - seriously. Annette. Seriously. Also - I found these legit bars at Whole Foods - that are paleo... soaked and dryed made from coconuts, dates, almonds... goji berries - a good choice for a treat... but I eat 2... not ideal... and then I had this flaxseed spirunlina bar... MAN! Bars are meant to be rare treats, but because I am sick and there are cookies in the house... I go to town... ! And that is it for my splurge... thankfully... I cast myself into a bout of fasting... well, one, because I need to - for a blood-draw, and two... because I need to RESET.

I was really sad about the events above... the next day Tuesday... still sick... I took off (working-out)... fasted for most the day, slept for most the day... and then made a modest soup... good reset.

Feeling guilty and none too pleased with myself. I confessed my errors to my roommate Stephani... and she gave me some really solid advice. Basically she said that as someone who might track this challenge it isn't about... "well, I did everything perfectly... TAH DAH!" - She wants to see my struggles, my failures, and that I haven't lost everything I am still in the challenge... etc. etc. motivation... etc.

This was a needed talk.

And true.

SO... here it is Saturday again. And NO. I haven't had a drink... feels good.

good week. bad weekend.

This was a good week. Though I was sick - which kept me down for the count on Monday and Tuesday. I worked through the throaty-headcoldy-sinusy-thing and did some good work at yea' ol' gym. Engaging my lats. Big deal. I have not been doing that - I have however been hanging limply... so the world with my lats engaged is a whole new world. Interested in seeing where it will take me. In other news I can do standard push-ups... well... I can do at least 10 - I have yet to go max effort on this one, but will be sure to let you know.

As for bad weekend... stay tuned...

Sleep

One of the most important factors for me. And sometimes so hard to attain - especially when a schedule doesn't allow. BUT. I find my self in the position of being unemployed until July 6th. And so PRIORITY. SLEEP! I am curious to see if this will affect my training... ?

Body Comp.

Yup. Did that today. Dunked in a bath of water to get my lean muscle mass vs. fat etc. Don't know how I feel about that - the judge is out. It is a good place to start from. I will post more stats etc soon. I promise.

Sometimes I feel like things won't change. And I hate that thought. I want this challenge to get accomplished. I want to prove that I CAN DO IT.

fingers crossed.

CRANKY. ANNETTE. CRANKY.

so. there are a lot of things that make me cranky. let's make a list:

1. Being Weak
2. Not knowing everything
3. Not being good at something
4. Not feeling 100%
5. Not feeling connected to my body
6. Not performing my best
7. Not making gains
8. Feeling weak (different than being weak)
9. Doing awkward things
10. Having mental hang-ups
11. STILL having mental hang-ups
12. Not going as hard as I know I can b/c of aforementioned feeling of awkwardness and non-connectivity

um. i could go on. but, i think you get the gist.

the last 2 days i have been CRANKY at the gym due to a combination of all of the above.

and i say to myself. GET OVER IT. but, i whine (unattractively) it is hard...

and yeah. it is.

especially the mental block thing. today we were doing burpees with a lateral jump over a paralette and i abhor lateral jumps. i loathe box jumps. jumps in general are a challenge. it is this lame mental hang up thing. as with a lot of things in CrossFit - somewhere my brain is telling my body not to perform.

and I am all: body, don't listen just do!
and it is all: screw you Annette - i do what i want.

which sucks. it is like GREAT how many mental blocks can we find.
and i think to myself - no big. i will just do this movement everyday until I am comfortable with it. but there are like A MILLION movements like that...

and when these thoughts start to roll in my brain along with not feeling completely connected to my body - and feeling the effects of not awesome digestion... the world starts to look dismal... hence the CRANKY.

get. over. your. self.

Dried Fruit.

Stumble. Stumble. Here is the thing about restrictive diets. At least, for me and restrictive diets. I want to eat things - that normally I have no trouble avoiding. Now that you tell me I can't. I want it. I feel like I have regressed to a five year old.

This weekend was tough. I wanted sugar. SUGAR. sugar.

So. Before the challenge I have been eating pretty paleo. Staying away from dried fruit and most fruit because of the sugar and carbs. I sometimes eat strawberries - especially because they are in season and DELICIOUS. But - I had taken apples and pears out - both of which had been my morning go-to.

This weekend. Because I was feeling deprived from my lack of oil adding and lack of almond/cashew/macadamia snacking - I decided I COULD have dried fruit - and I went a little over-board. Dried mangos, dried pineapples, dates... now keep in mind none of these had any added sugar, but, dude, they don't need to ... these little guys pack a punch - and I know that - yet give me a bag of dried mangos and I give you back a container of cellophane.

So. OKAY. Lesson learned. I am not ready to introduce dried fruit because apparently... I lack control.

Focus for this week is to tighten the dial slightly. Now with my parents out of town - I don't have to worry about eating out as much - so I should have the ability to focus up and dial in. I need to get creative with my snacky snacks.

The Challenge

FIRST. Sorry for the lateness of this posting. Today is officially Day 13. Day 13 of what you might ask. Well. Let me bring you up to speed.

I am doing a 90-Day challenge to a Muscle-Up. So I have 77 Days Left...

The challenge was proposed by my trainer Jordan: http://xplorecrossfit.typepad.com/

We are documenting it. I will soon be putting up some video.

Basically. The idea is for me to nail ONE muscle-up in 90 days.

Currently, I can't do an unassisted pull-up. So this would be huge. It would change the way I train. And I want it.

To reach the goal Jordan has asked me to go on a no-added-fat Paleo diet. THIS IS HARD. And I will be blogging about my tactics with the diet. I plan on letting you know the struggles. The successes, the failures, the progress, the inter-workings of my brain and the kind of challenge it presents also.